Changing Gears

It seems I never have any time for writing now.
 
Have you ever felt like you are standing in quick sand? That you just get on a roll and you have to shift gears since the real world keeps interfering?
 
There comes a point when you have to wonder how some people can work all day and then go home, switch gears and do the writing and other things you need for self publishing.
 
I have to wonder if this is a personality issue or something else. Is it just a matter of mind set or energy or maybe it is perfectionism and if the situation isn’t perfect you can’t do the work.
 
I guess it is like doing commission portraits…I started doing them when I was 13 so i got to the point i could do a portrait after work or on a very tight deadline.
 
Maybe if I work at it, and focus on doing some small thing three times a week, I can feel like I am still in the game. Maybe if I try disciplining myself more with baby steps I can learn to do more than just think about them.
 
I have watched videos of successful writers and many of them all have the same things in common. They write and write and write, and they do it every chance they can get! Successful writers are very prolific.
 
I know from having art shows, that sometimes i am successful, and this interferes with my process because making the next one better puts blocks up.
 
As I mentioned before until you are retired or have enough money or low expenses coming in, there is no way life cannot come first...it has to.
 
I was looking at a TED Talk about finding your purpose, or what you really want to do…well, what happens when you find out what you want to do,however you can;t do it because life has to be lived.
 
It is all fine and dandy, so then what? I am in a better  fortunate I guess, because a few more years and I am retiring. I will find a way on only CPP whether i have to move to another country to be able to survive as a single person however what about young people?
 
Well, I have listened to you tube videos from young people and you know, if you have the ability and the desire, you can make a damn good living since most young people have the natural ability to use a computer. Plus everything you need to learn to be successful is out there for free on line. There is a gamble however if you really love to write, you can find a way!
 
For us older folk, it is harder. We have to work at the technical side.
 
So, in conclusion I have come to the conclusion, that if i want to write, I need to learn how to shift gears and just write!  Like so many other things, I am going to make a plan. Take baby steps and then follow them.
 
For myself, I have learned it has to be manageable and something I can be successful with.
 
Maybe to start, since I am in the middle of preparing to move and find new work,  I need to look at doing three things a week for 1 hour towards the whole self publishing things.
 
If you are like me, and just feel this is the next step in my life no matter what, then good luck!