Back at it!

Well, I was working and making a living. It was fine however it left me too exhausted to think! Add to this, it crippled me up standing all day on cement! So now, I am taking a little time off to touch base with what I am doing as a writer and how I feel about it.

I work with gifted individuals, both young and older. One thing I find common is that sometimes it is difficult to stay on task, to not get bored with it and go off and do something else. ADD and ADHD labelled folks know what I am talking about.

I don't think there is any way around this except to find something you are passionate about and then follow the inspiration and see where it leads you! I have heard and read such inspiration and successful quotes over the years.  I from so many special people who have found their soul's purpose and followed it. I have a friend who had bought, I think, every book and cassette of that time of inspirational people and then gave them to me! When I had Chronic Fatigue I had plenty of time to read and listen and it was the best investment of time I ever made because when I am down some sort of quote or words of wisdom always pop into my head!

I most pronounced and common thread I have heard, seen or read is the same: follow your bliss, you passion, your interest, your little voice, your gut, do what you love and the money will follow...whatever you want to call it. I think anyone who has made it in anything has had the good sense to actually LISTEN to what their inner knowing is telling them. I think when you do this, it is like you really don't have any choice in the matter!

Another factor in it all, is "how is it of service to humankind", how does it "make a difference" or how does it "touch someone". That with any such inspirational project there has to be a reason, a desire, more than what meets the eye. In this, I have given it a good deal of thought, from the get go with the stories I wrote all those years ago when I was a child...and yes, I must admit my original intent was not that altruistic! Not that grand...I had little power in my life with the bullies, including my older, very unhappy and miserable green-eyed sister, so I considered my short story a success if it would make her cry! lol! Yup, little sister was getting her own back!  However I would like to think from then, I have moved on!

I do indeed have reasons for what I am writing. I don't do it to preach or to pretend, I do the writing I do because I don't want something I loved growing up, lost in the mists of time. I don't want the old ways of my home in NS lost with the new and the modern and mixed up in the dogma of New Age terminology. I learned things as a child I don't want to forget, and I hope one day, if others who are young read what I have written, they will also get a glimpse into another time and place so far removed from modern humankind.

Oh yes, for all those folks who do have a problem with follow through on projects, I think the only way is good old fashioned discipline. I don't think there is any magic formula, I think you just have to surround yourself with quotes from others who have been able to complete what they start and keep their inspirational thoughts close to you. I have made up a cup I had printed, I will find to post here...it is my my help especially when editing AGAIN!  Whatever works, whatever can be a reminder of what your aiming for and will encourage you to keep going; that is up to you but is all you can do! I think it is all anyone can do.

And finally a word on confidence. It is a funny thing isn't it? To be hungry, to be confident one moment, and then suddenly to feel like you are holding up a mountain alone it is so hard to hang on in the face of adversity and criticism. All I can say, is carry on, your not alone! Everyone has self doubts. Everyone wonders, even if they are very good at not showing it! Look at the most successful entertainers...many admit they still get stage fright! I think a little anxiety can be viewed instead as EXCITEMENT! These emotions are not that far apart!!!

I have decided with this writing and publishing business, even though developing an online presence is the farthest thing from what I feel capable of doing, I will start, and I will continue...one day I will be retired, and then I can really put more into it all. For now, I will put in the time I can, because that is all I can do. Have to live, to pay bills and get on with life! So be it!